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Monday, December 12, 2016

It's the most wonderful time of the year

Hello :) It's only 13 days to Christmas!

I love christmas, Christmas lights, and snow and christmas tress and buying presents.
and there's nothing more special than celebrating this time of year with a wonderful man by my side.

I've been sick for about 4 weeks. First i had a cold, and then my asthma flared up, and then i got bronchitis. It's been fun lol but i'm not on the mend .. or so it seems lol

Nick went to Ohio for thanksgiving, He left Thursday and was supposed to be gone until late Saturday night.  My family's thanksgiving was at my house on that Saturday and Nick surprised me and came back in time to come to my thanksgiving.

anyways, working and doing school and hanging out with Nick. That's where my week goes. :)
It snowed this past weekend and that was awesome.
I went with Nick and his family to find a christmas tree. I've never done that before and that was really fun.
I bought Nick a present for christmas. And it stinks that he's in criminal justice. He figured it out. lol

 Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

October Update

Good Morning everyone!
It's November 1st!!
Which means it's almost Christmas!!!

I thought i'd post a October update... There was a lot that went on..

Nick and I celebrated 8 months of dating. I got highlights. We got family pictures taken. Nick and I started babysitting every other Sunday night. Yeah. Lots of things.

I can't believe that I've dated this wonderful man for 8 months.. It feels just like yesterday that we started talking and at the same time, it feels like I've been around him forever.
A friend of mine took our Family pictures at Adams mill  and they turned out wonderful!
I got red highlights and i love them. I don't know if i'll ever go back to my normal hair color.

I also craved a pumpkin for the first time and went trick or treating for the first time as well. It was awesome!

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

One bold step

Yesterday I went to see my friend who is going through beauty school.... and I asked her to put highlights in my hair...

It's so pretty. I had thought about changing the whole color of my head but then settled on highlights. It's like a dark cherry red highlights. It looks really natural.I know it will wash out some and look different but i really like it the way it is now. I could have done my whole head this color. Nick loved it as well. Since I'm at my work computer, I can't post any pictures but I'm hoping you'll remember when i go home tonight to post some.

This was a very bold step for me. Especially since I was worried it wouldn't look professional..

But I'm loving it.

Friday, September 23, 2016

Seven amazing months

Hey Ya'll
On Tuesday of this week, I've celebrated seven months with my amazing man. He's so amazing. lol
I don't think i could list everything i love about him.

He's super sweet. Just yesterday when i showed up at his house to spend the afternoon with him, i was telling him to hurry up because the day was half over. He turned and pulled me into his arms and said "you are my day." awww

We went to Steak and shake for lunch yesterday and then he went shopping with me... What was supposed to be a 20 mins trip in and out, turned out to be an hour at least. I was waiting on my meds to be filled and they took forever!

I was going to put up 7 pictures of us but.... My phone wont load to the computer lol So i can only use the ones i have on my computer here at work.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Affording College.... Can i get a vote?

Hello y'all!
For my community college education, I had a small college fund that my parents provided and it helped me to be able to get my associates degree without having to go into debt. I also worked as much as i could to afford college.
I've decided in the last couple of months that i really want to go on for my bachelor's. I knew that this wasn't going to be easy financially and i knew i would have to get loans. IWU will give me student loans but i still have to come up with close to $6,000 or get a loan through another place, such as a bank. I don't want to do that. Because i'm working full-time, i know that i could do it but money will be tight.
This past weekend, a friend of mine asked me if I've applied for an scholarship. I told her that i hadn't. She told me to go ahead and apply for some and see. Every little bit helps. So i have... This is where i need your help.
I applied for the Dr,Pepper scholarship which if you win is close to $100,000 if needed! It would pay for my entire education! But In order to apply for the grand prize. I need 50 votes! Yes, Just 50 people to yes they will vote for me!! Please help  me out! I already have 3!

Vote here! and Help me afford college!

Thank you so much! Feel free to share this and pass it around.
If you want to know about the program details, that's Here

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Starting College...Again. What??

Here I am. Sitting at my desk at my wonderful job and i reach under my desk to, what you ask, to pull out my...textbook. Textbook you ask? I thought you were done. Well i learned a good lesson in never saying never. haha.
I'm officially going back to get my bachelor's degree in Accounting! I'm going online to Indiana Wesleyan University. I'm looking forward to it. It's 1 class for 5-6 weeks then another. So far classes started today, and i finished all this weeks homework, Yesterday!
I loved it. It was great to know that i could work at it from work and not have to drive to class and sit in a lecture for 2 hours. Even though it's the first day, i have a feeling that this is going to be great. I might not always think that. Ask me some morning after an exam!

Nick and I have even talked about me going on and getting my CPA. If it was worth it. But I'm going to take one stone at a time and i'll be able to move that mountain.

Talk to you later Folks!



Tuesday, August 23, 2016

What to choose

There's days when i'm fine. Perfectly fine. and then there's days when i have a hard decision to make. Do i live with the pain of a migraine or do i take the meds and live with the pain the meds give me?

the pain i get from my migraines, is normally, pin-pointed on my forehead, behind one of my eyes, my neck hurts, and i'll have knots in my necks and upper back, i'll have numbing pain in my lower back/hips. and i'll get dizzy and light headed, and feel like i'm going to faint or sometimes, i've wondered if i'm going to die.

The pain i get from my pain meds, is hard, my throat gets like a swollen feeling and sometime i feel like i'm going to have trouble breathing. and i feel numb. and very tired. and sometimes i feel like my head is cloudy.

i hate how i feel when i take the meds but i hate being in pain.
That's the hardest thing, making the choice about what pain you're going to live with,

Saturday, July 23, 2016

The end of July already

It's the end of July already and i can't believe it. This past week was Carroll County Fair, and My brother got Reserve Champion for Llama's and my sister got grand champion for Llama fiber. It was a hot week.
On the other hand, since it's the end of July, my job at  Kendrick Nissan is over on Tuesday. Kinda a bittersweet and yet looked forward to moment. I started my job at Fisher's about 3 weeks ago and I'm loving it. I've been there 2-3 days a week and It feels like home.

I'm a big person with celebrations, Like anniversary, when i started a job or when i went somewhere. This past week on July 20th, I celebrated 5 months with Nicholas. We went to Carroll county fair to join some friends in the pork cook off. Then we went to see the secret life of pets! It was good.

Saturday, July 2, 2016

My Favorite days

As this morning dawned, I thought to myself, this is one of my favorite days. So I decided to write down my favorite days. I have a lot of them

1) Christmas. No matter what. Christmas is my favorite. I don't care about the gifts, There's just something magical about Christmas day

2) The First snow fall of the year...  It's so magical! It's so special. Everything is so clean. I reminds me of what it felt like when i asked Christ into my life. All clean, all fresh, all new.

3)My Birthday... No matter what happens on that day, it's my favorite because it's my birthday.

4) The day i met Nick. Yes i know Cheesy, But it's true. The day i saw him, I knew i wanted him as my friend and hopefully lord willing more. God has blessed me for much in the last 4 months. I feels like i've known him for much longer

5) The first day in Canada. This day, time stands still, The wind stops moving, my heart starts beating a little faster, and I'm at home

6) Every time the man you loves tells you he loves you

those are 6 of my favorite days.
There's something every day that makes me go "this is my favorite day."
The other week, it was a day after work, and i was sitting there on the couch with Nick, and he reached over and put his arm around me. Yes He's done it before but at that moment, it was like perfect, and at that moment, I couldn't think of a place, I'd rather be.

Or like last week, when i stayed the night at Sandra's, and we stayed up talking until it was 11pm, it was a special moment,

these Special days and special moments...

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Faking it to you make it

I'm not sure how many times some one has told me to "fake it to you make it." Fake it. Fake what? My life? why should i? This is my life.

In College, the first couple of weeks of the classes i didnt like and i wasn't sure i was understanding, fellow classmates would tell me to "Fake it, until you make it."

In work, I had a coworker tell me, after i had explained to them that i wasnt sure what i was doing "fake it until i make it."

In taxes, unsure the first tax return i did if i did it right, i was told "fake it to you make it"

In my personal life, with dating and getting my heart broken, everybody told me to "fake my normal life until it's my life."

I don't like that saying. In some ways it's true. but at the same time, You can't fake something if it isn't right. Don't fake your Christianity, Don't fake your schoolwork, don't fake a relationship, don't fake a work. and definitely don't fake Taxes! If you don't like it, change it. We have the ability to change things in our life. God lets us change things.

So i'm tired of the fake it to you make it. You should be for everything as my best friend says "for everything 110%!"

Cowboysgal out!

Saturday, June 11, 2016

It's Never the same

It was 6 years ago, in June 2011 that i realized that my grandmother was going to die from pancreatic cancer. I remember standing in the shower, letting the hot water run down my face, washing away my tears. At that time, I couldn't understand why God would take someone so important from me. Someone I couldn't imagine living my life without.

In August of 2011, We came home from Canada and found out that my grandpa had cancer. Less than 8 weeks later, He was gone. It was hard. It was like hitting me over the head with a brick. I realized that even though i was probably going to lose my grandma, at least i was able to spend the last couple of months with her instead of losing her so quickly like i did my grandfather.

Fast forward to 2015.... It started out as an amazing year with different road then i had planned on walking on. I learned a lot while dating Jordan. Learned about myself, learned about my family, and learned about how confusing life is.

Life doesn't turn out the way you plan. God has his own way of showing you that he has everything in control and that even though you think that that certain path is the right one, you might not see it now, you might never see it but everything will turn out the best way possible.

I've learned that i like to be in control and i don't like my life to change. I like a schedule.
Last fall was hard. I didn't want to do school, even though it was a good way to take my mind off my life, it was a good way to be in control. I didn't want to work because emotionally i saw him everywhere and i hate that. I couldn't erase him from my life and i wasn't even sure if  i wanted to.

In February when i started dating Nick,  I think subconsciously i expect to feel the same way when dating Nick that i did when i was dating Jordan. But the thing i just realized is that it won't be the same because i'm not the same. I'm not that girl that first talked to Jordan. I'm not the one that feels like shes in complete control of her life. Because When i started dating Jordan, I would have said i had pretty good control of my life. but Not now. definitely not now

It's never the same. After something big in your life happens. nothings the same. The feelings you had or the thoughts or  your plans for the future. Nothings the same.

Jordan asked the other day, he knows that i would date him all over again if i had to go back in time but would i date Nick? That made me pause. I would. I wouldn't trade these few months with nick in order to have Jordan for 6 months again. I rather have Nick.Because my relationship with him, Isn't the same as my relationship with Jordan. I love Nick.

He makes me feel complete. I can be myself. I can joke, with my humor that could kill sometimes. I can be my clingy self and That's okay with him. He makes me feel safe and when i see his smile, I feel like I've been waiting for that everyday of my life, even if it's only been a couple of hours since I've seen him last.  His smile melts my heart and makes me really happy.

No Life hasn't turned out the way i fought so hard for it to be. But you know what, God's plan is always better. Even though last fall was hard, Jordan and i are still Friends. Nolan and I are still friends. And I've been able to move on from Jordan, and Date a wonderful man.


Monday, May 30, 2016

May is almost over

I have always wanted this day to come... The end of May 2016! It's something i've been looking forward to this month since i was 13.
           At first i was because i was planning on moving to Sault Ste Marie, Michigan. I really really had wanted to move in June. I love sault ste Marie. But plans have changed.
       The second reason was because I graduated from Ivy Tech!!!! Wahoo!!!!

I can't believe this is finally here. I'm looking forward to a full time job, to actually not worry about money.
I'm starting at IWU in October for my bacholer's!'

I'm still in love with tall dark and handsome Nicholas. I have pictures. His 20th birthday was friday and i decorated this bedroom.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Finishing it up

Hello, It's been quite some time since i've been on here. Doesn't mean that I Haven't been thinkin about you all.
So Small news first.... I've decided to get my bachelor's....Taxes are over.....This sesmeter is almost done.... I've order my invitations for graduation....and I'm dating again.

So much in so little time.
For spring break i went to Virginia again and left my dear boyfriend Nick at home. Boy did he miss me? :) I was glad to come back. I had gotten sick before i went down there and i was sick while i was down there so i was so ready to come home.
Nick came down with my mom to pick me up from the airport and my flight came in at like 11. and since i was sick, i don't remember much of the trip back home but i do know that. So I was telling my mom how i felt like i had a temp and when i went through security i was hoping they wouldn't stop me. The guy stopped me and asked me if i felt like i was hot. I remember thinkin "no but my boyfriend thinks i am!." I of course told nick and my mom what i had thought and my mother goes "Hannah!" and i went " and my boyfriend has a cute butt!". My Mother goes "HANNAH MARIE LEWIS!" Nick and I still laugh about that.

I'm going for my bachelor's at Indiana Wesleyan. I can't wait to start!
Taxes are over. It's like looking forward to Christmas and then being sad when Christmas is here.
I have almost all my work for this semester turned in!
Well there you go. Enjoy

Saturday, February 20, 2016

Migraines be gone

So most of you know that i've suffered with migraines for almost my whole life.
Stress causes some, my eating causes some, and not working out , the list could go on and on and on. But Early in January i noticed that when i was having migraines, they would be between an 8-10 pain wise and i would have numbness in my left leg. When the numbness started to get worse, i decided it was time to go to the doctor. I had gone about 2 years ago and there was nothing they could do but put me on meds. Since they had tried 2 other meds and they didn't work, i decided why bother.

Anyways, Last Thursday the 11th of February, i went to the doctor, They said there wasn't anything they can do until i have tried 3 different meds total, So I agreed to try another med, which i wasn;t  too happy about because i didn't believe that it would work.
My last headache was on February 12th! I've gone 8 days without a migraine! That's the longest i've gone in so many years!!! I'm so thankful that the doctors have put me on the right meds.

Life is starting to turn around. I've decided to go for my bachelors in accounting, I love doing taxes, my migraines have stopped and..... drum roll please...... nope... You'll have to wait till next time...


Thursday, January 7, 2016

Loss of a loved one. My special Friend Sasha

Christmas was hard this year. With everything that has happened these last couple of months, I didn't except it to be easy but i didn't expect it to be this hard.

On December 26th, 2015, My cousin Sasha committed suicide. It's been very hard on her husband, her kids, her parents and all of her family. My wonderful cousin was 27 years old, married to her wonderful husband Cody for 7 years, has a 3 year old daughter names Ember and a 5 month old son named Gus.
She suffered from postpartum depression for years and this time she didn't feel like she could work through it.
Here's a little poem that i really like. Please enjoy reading the poem and looking at my favorite pictures of Sasha.

​The Dash
by Linda Ellis copyright 1996

​I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on the tombstone
from the beginning…to the end.

He noted that first came the date of birth
and spoke the following date with tears,
but he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that they spent alive on earth.
And now only those who loved them
know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own,
the cars…the house…the cash.
What matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our dash.

So, think about this long and hard.
Are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what’s true and real
and always try to understand
​the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger
and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives
like we’ve never loved before. 

If we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile,
remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while.

​So, when your eulogy is being read,
with your life’s actions to rehash…
would you be proud of the things they say
about how you spent YOUR dash?