This is the hardest post I've ever had to do... even harder than telling you all that my grandmother had passed away. :(
On August 18th, at 4:32 pm, Jordan broke up with me. He told me it was because he didn't feel like he was giving 110% towards this relationship and that he didn't feel like his heart was in it for Marriage. He told me that he didn't want to hurt me...
I have a news flash for him though
he did hurt me. He hurt me by acting like he cared for me. I know him well enough to know that he never lied to me but deep down inside i do feel lied to. Because he keep it a secret that he had things on his mind. i wish he had told me there was things he was thinking about and i would have prayed for them with him.
I told myself last week and i'm still telling myself it every day. That if he wanted to talk with me, he has my number and text messages go both ways. he said he wanted to just be friends.
I don't want to be just friends. I really don't believe it;s over.. I want to wait for him. I really hope he does ask me back out but in the time being, i have to find my feet since he knocked them out from underneath me.
I still love him. He's such a amazing person and He was such a blessing for me. I really do believe that he's the one the Lord has in store for me. I'm just praying that the lord will put us back together and that we'll learn from this.
Please Pray for me this up coming weeks and please pray for Jordan and his wonderful Family.
Pray that i don't lose my 2 best friends.